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March 28, 2006
Total Fucking Mishugina
Damnit, I'm sick. I have innumerable things to do this week on top of my birthday this Thursday (hint, hint) and a party we're hosting on Saturday. My never-ending to-do list will just have to wait for a bit for I think my body has gone on strike. My throat is so sore I can barely talk. How am I going to arrange the grizzly bear shoot in this condition? I'll stop whining now.
I was on the train this morning feeling like crap when this old man who looked like Woody Allen except twice as old, if you can imagine, told this boy of 10 or so sitting near him,"Guess what kid? There's a quartah on the floor." I think the man expected the boy to say, "Well, hot dog! Thanks mister!" but the boy just looked up from his gameboy appliance and uttered a non-plussed "huh?" And so the man said it again, and pointed with his old man finger to where the quarter was located. The boy took one look at the lone coin on the slimy floor, rolled his eyes in disgust, and re-focused his attention on his little screen. The man shook his head, threw his hands up in the air, and actually muttered, "mishugina." It was quite satisfying to witness this exchange between the generations. Sorta reminded me of the Jewish grandpa I never had.
So aside from being sick, I'm also in utter shock. Yesterday, I received an email from an ex-boyfriend who I have not talked to in some time. By "some time," I mean enough time for him to have a baby. The email was a birth announcement and with it were several photographs of said BABY. It has been a little over a year since we've talked and I did the math: That's like four months months to get to know the woman and then, um, nine for the pregnancy? For a long time, even before we were dating, he and I were really close friends. And now, he is man who has a family. I'm incredibly happy for him though. I know he must be overjoyed and he'll be a fantastic father...but I'm also sad that I'm so far out of his life that I didn't know anything about this until a mass email was sent out. Is this selfish of me? That I'm upset I didn't know? We had tried to remain friends after the break up, but for complicated reasons, it didn't work out very well. I guess I just hoped that one day we would be able to be friends again. I don't have any more words about this, because I'm still in disbelief. I feel like time is accelerating faster than it ever has and all this monumental stuff is happening at once. Total mishugina, that's all I have to say.
subway photo courtesty of vince
Posted by debbie at March 28, 2006 10:47 AM